First Screening

So, progress is being made. Watched through that DVD a few times, reordered a few scenes, and kept picking at all the scabs I kept running into. Those awkward cuts that would distract, kept trying to smooth those over. Mostly successful, I think. Long nights this week, longer than usual because I was getting ready to burn a new DVD, this time for the consumption of eyes other than my own.

The time has finally come to show That Thing I've been working on for so long to other people. That Thing that's been floating around for years in my head, and is now in a mostly finished state. A bit scary, mostly because of the 'mostly' part of the mostly finished state. It's still a rough cut, and it's being presented as such, but that still scares me. I haven't had the chance to make it presentable yet, that part of the editing process comes after the picture is locked, and I don't want to commit to that until some folks have seen it, but I hate to show it in an unfinished state, and so on and so on. You get the idea. Sound is the big one, it sucks to go from shot to shot with each one having a different consistency of sound due to microphone placement and wind noise and traffic and such. Stuff that would be equalized and covered by ambient sounds and foley and compressed to make a legible sounding thing. For example, the raw versions of the scenes that consist of “One more cup of coffee” are in this rough cut, and it doesn't sound so hot. I didn't even do as much as I should have when I released the finished version of One more cup a while back and it still sounds so much better than what's on this DVD. Thankfully that's probably some of the worst sounding stuff so I'm optimistic about fixing the rest of the movie, but the viewers won't get that benefit tomorrow.

Then again, I don't think that's what I'm really worried about. I think I worry about the movie itself. How are those folks going to react? Especially since now there's probably going to be a few more folks showing up than I first anticipated, folks that don't really know me the way the close friends do. For their sake I worry about the presentation, but I also wonder how they'll take to that film-making style of mine. That rambling nonsense I tend to make, how's that gonna go over tomorrow? Will the movie make sense, will it resonate, will it bore? Above all else I just hope it's entertaining when it's all said and done and I how no idea how anyone other than myself will think of it. I don't even know what I think of it, as I mentioned before I tend to swing between love and hate on this thing, and I'm currently going towards hate. If I don't like it what hope is there for anyone else?

It's almost like I'm heading towards the gallows tomorrow. Awaiting judgment after being imprisoned for months. Not even remembering the crime I was charged with, let alone whether or not I even committed said crime. At the mercy of my peers, hoping they'll be kind but also wanting to hear the truth behind their thoughts, sticking my neck out ready and willing to receive whatever punishment I deserve. I guess either way it should be fun, I mean how often does one get the opportunity to receive honest criticism?Not actually losing my head, and what doesn't kill me could make me stronger. It'll make this movie stronger... God, that sounded corny.